Slipping......

With each day comes more challenges. I have done my best to stay strong, positive and attempt to hold it all together. I'm slipping...

Starting to feel like no one on this project is working together as a team .. there is division and we are working against each other rather than towards the common goal. I hold myself to a high standard and want to deliver the best. I am the face of this training- and I feel that the total success is on Amy and I's shoulders. I cant help but notice there seems to be a different set of rules and expectations for the trainers then anyone else on this project.


I feel misunderstood. I know, without a doubt, that nobody can understand the full capacity of the struggles on this project without actually experiencing it.  I think about all that I given up to be here and how much easier it would have been to just say I couldnt do it. I need to find my strength... I need to remember the good in this opportunity.

Today I feel sad.  

“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”